Haha.
I bet nobody ever scrolls down to here.
Just as well.
this is gna be emo and AA.

I'm glad that at least my friends are happy.
I'm not feeling hurt this time.
I'm a teeny weeny bit jealous.
And lonely.

Well, everyone has someone to talk to and stuff.
Like how Deborah, Carrie and Yingying have each other.
Like how Lydia has Liwen.
Like how Yixi has Liwen.
Like how Yixi has Cheryl.
Like how Mae has Dawn.
Like how Jingqing has Grace.
Like how Yingying has Jessica.
Like how they have him.
Like how I have nobody.
I have thought about it for quite some time.
I always thought perhaps it was just me thinking too much.
Always comforting myself with them.
Somehow.

I got proven wrong.
I dont know why either.
Im really confused now.
Who to trust.

You kept that from me.
I thought I found a great friend, to me, perhaps even best friend.
I thought I was lucky.
Until I found out the truth.

I'm afraid now.
Afraid of losing you.
Afraid of saying stupid things to you.
Afraid of being myself in front of you.

Everything's changing.
You're no longer the person I used to know.
It's like a race.
A game.

Spin the dice.
Everyone's accelerating.
Near the finishing line.
I try to run.
But fall flat on my face.
Everyone's laughing.
"Oh look how dumb she is! Cant even catch up."

I cant catch my breath.
I cant stand back up.
Just lying there.
Forever.

Go on.
It doesnt matter.
Stab me; I bleed.
Kill me; I die.
I'm but a human.
One that...

gives up.

I am Jade.
Jade is green.
Jade is expensive.

Whee.
I like chocolates, do you?